I hope you’re finally happier.

Happy New Years love x 

oh, i could feel the beating of your heart ache drum.

It’s been a day
It’s felt like an age
Since I have seen you
A face to face so we can say what we need to
I know you changed
You don’t look the same
We all make mistakes
It’s growing pains, it’s just a phase we have to go through

I’ve been wasting all this time
Trying to keep you off my mind
Yeah, you off my mind, no more
I’ve been wasting all these nights
Trying to keep you off my mind
Yeah, you off my mind, no more

How long should I wait (I wait, I wait)
To feel myself, feel myself again
Cause I don’t think you hate (You hate, you hate)
When we’re side by side but going two separate ways

I’ve been wasting all this time
Trying to keep you off my mind
Yeah, you off my mind, no more
I’ve been wasting all these nights
Trying to keep you off my mind
Yeah, you off my mind, no more

What are you searching for?
What are you looking for?
I don’t think you know
I don’t think you know

I’ve been wasting all this time
Trying to keep you off my mind
You off my mind, hey!

I’ve been wasting all this time
Trying to keep you off my mind
Yeah, you off my mind, no more
I’ve been wasting all these nights
Trying to keep you off my mind
Yeah, you off my mind, no more

What are you searching for?
What are you looking for?

jaded.

It 7-fucking-30 in the morning and do you know what I’m thinking of right now ?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Bubbles.
I’m thinking of bubbles.

If only problems could burst like bubbles.

I sat from 1am to 3am under my house to catch a breather just so I didn’t have to deal with your very being and your accusations. 

I came home to my cupboard rummaged through and my clothes thrown everywhere. 
As of today, 16/12/2016, you are dead to me. 

give.

So i got my results back today. I did really well but seeing as to how i was just 1-3 marks away from distinctions for ALL my subjects makes me want to try even harder next year. With everything lined up for me in 17′, i know i’ll be going places. So psycheddddddd

I was completely floored though when my dad’s reply was less than congratulatory or encouraging but you know what? It doesn’t matter. I cannot live my life to gain his approval, i’m never ever going to get it because thats just how our dynamics is, for now at least. I should stop harbouring on all the negativity i seem to drown myself in sometimes. I’ve got nothing to prove to anyone but myself. It’s me, Francesca. And someday, somehow, in time, the people who couldn’t see my worth now, eventually will.

Also, i’ve ran a total of 15km and i’ve finally hit my ideal weight. Thats it for the week and it’s bye Singapore! 🐟

I guess right now i’m just collateral damage with a whole lot of curves 🙂

francesca has just left the building…..

for some oysters. 

gone so young

Satisfaction is rolling, it really can’t be explained. My spirits are tainted and my tears are painted already. It feels good nowadays. Lust for teenage enjoyment has finally been tamed. It has been a fantastic weekend of love, laughter, music and good feels.

On a side note, my application has been approved. 6 more months and i’ll be spreading my wings. Time really flies. Thank you everyone for all the encouragement and believing in a girl like me, i never needed anything more.

and then christmas… oh god. Christmas ( :

… but you were a chain smoker. 
And I. 

was just another pack of cigarettes. 

…. so i guess this is his view ?

I did not wake up hungry today , in fact i was woken up by hunger. There was no time transition , no two second realization before hunger is recognised. It literally got me up. Hunger had me in his clutches, savaged me in my sheets at 6.50 am this morning. I had two eggs and a sausage. I felt so satisfied and went back to sleep for another two hours till i woke up to eat official breakfast.

What a lovely morning.