Monthly Archives: February 2016

Maybe, maybe not. 

“At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It’s not like you’re giving up, and it’s not like you shouldn’t try. It’s just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours will eventually be yours,and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.”

#3am

Fuck you and goodbye.

I’m leaving this time for good.

I could keep on waiting because hope is all I have. But you would still never change, not now, not ever.

And you’ll regret it, you know it so well that years down the road it’s going to cut you down to your bones and you’ll touch your heart and think of me.

fucking liar.

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Sometimes i look at myself and i go like, wow francesca you’re actually not too bad. And then his tiny voice creeps in and it goes something like , “you’re a slut”, “i can find another you in 3 days”, “fucking lok kuey”,  “she’s prettier than you”, “you think you’re very pretty? Please la i can find so many other prettier girls than you”, “i can’t believe i left her for you!!!!!”. And suddenly i just don’t feel all too good anymore. So i fold my clothes back and make sure to never wear it again. I guess i’m head over heels with this boy that i stuck around so long. i would take bullet for him.

maybe one day he will see how much he is actually destroying me. i hope he realizes it soon before i drive myself insane.

once i go crazy he’s going to hate me, and it’s all his fault.